My God is SO Big!!!

Yesterday on the lovely BBC campus was the Day of Prayer. Classes were cancelled so that the students, faculty and staff could focus on prayer. This year, we had a theme to our Day of Prayer paralleling the theme for this school year of Celebrating God's Faithfulness (seeing as this year is the 75th Anniversary of the school) - the theme yesterday was "Thankfulness For God's Faithfulness".

Yesterday could not have come at a better time. Spiritually and emotionally I was to the brink. I was dealing with a situation that seemed to be taking a very very bad turn for the worst, and all last week I was up late in distress crying out to God, over the weekend I was questioning if there is ever a time in ministry when you have to give up on someone. I dont mean stop loving them and praying for them - but when there is just nothing else you can do. Needless to say, I was pretty drained and basically wondering how God was really working in the situation.

Tuesday night Boykin came to me and said that he had the best news I could have ever wanted to hear right now. God had worked in this guy's heart and life and he made a 180. I was thrilled, my heart was rejoicing like none other. I would have been doing backflips if I had been able to!! It was just an amazing amazing answer to prayer that we had been praying hard for for a good while.

So I was already rejoicing in God's faithfulness. And then I was talking with one of my guys who was unsaved - and as we are talking I come to find out he got saved!!!!! Oh I went into my room last night about 1:30 and just was in prayer and thanking the Lord for His faithfulness and His perfect love and working all things together - and I just started to cry.

My soul and heart are so happy right now. Then I realized that i needed to ask forgiveness, because when I was praying over and over that God would be faithful and when I was struggling to decide if there is ever a time in the ministry when I just have to give up - I realized how selfish and un-Christlike I was really being.

When God has been so faithful to me, and to others and to all of mankind for the enterity of creation - how could I question being faithful in the ministry to others because of a few bad hours, days or weeks?

My God is so BIG and AWESOME and POWERFUL - He is working things together that I have yet to see. But I know that He is working I have experienced His working, and His faithfulness and my cup overflows.

Psalm 40:1-5

I waited patiently for the LORD; and He inclined to me and heard my cry. He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay, and He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm. He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God; many will see and hear and will trust in the LORD.

How blessed is the man who has made the LORD his trust, and has not turned to the proud, nor to those who lapse into falsehood. Many, O LORD my God, are the wonders which You have done, and Your thoughts towards us; There is none to compare with You. If I would declare and speak of them, they would be too numerous to count.